It’s not a great time right now for anyone, but more importantly, for me. I’m having, as they say in Australia “a shit time” for reasons relating to the mysteries of my brain chemistry, geopolitics, capitalism and moving to the other side of the world. I’m struggling ya’ll!
So, in an ongoing attempt to stay off Instagram before I do something so cancellable I truly can’t come back from it, here is part one of a possibly ongoing series where I talk about the things that are holding me back from the edge.
Snow
Climate change has comprehensively fucked us, but we did get a little bit of snow in NYC over the weekend and those few hours were MAGICAL. I made spiced hot cider with whiskey and licked clumps of snowflakes off my face on the walk to the bodega. It’s going to be 56 degrees one day this week, but for a minute it was nice to pretend real winter still exists.
Sad music
An all time favorite of mine (I had a Tumblr called Sad Jams back in the day)—listening to morose music always cheers me up. Recently I’ve been supplementing listening to sad songs and playing other peoples’ sad songs on guitar with writing a few of my own. Maybe they will see the light of day at some point!!
For the last few months I’ve been obsessed with the most recent Sarah Mary Chadwick album. She’s a brilliant Australian musician whose songs make me feel like I’m ripping out my own heart in the best possible. She’s also very funny! (I think she is subscribed to this, so hi Sarah!)
The cats
This will feature on every single list if I keep doing this. I truly don’t know how I’d survive without my three furry idiots who keep me company and drive Tom and I nuts every day. Today our middle cat (in age) spent an hour screaming when I was trying to take a nap and it was horrendous but I still would die for him.
Miyazaki
I saw The Boy and the Heron last week and it was so damn good. The plot was a somewhat incomprehensible mash up of all the other Miyazaki movies and it was full of terrifying birds. I loved every second of it. Just look at these guys!
The Curse
A TV show that makes you want to die from secondhand embarrassment is somehow one of the things making me want to live?? Sure, why not. I love that Nathan Fielder made a ten hour long David Lynch movie about gentrification. I love Emma Stone. I now constantly catch myself doing or thinking things that someone in this show would do and that makes me both hate myself and love it even more. Whose going to die in the final episode? Will Dougie crash his car from drunk driving again? Will Whitney put Asher out of his misery by murdering him? Will Fernando finally get justice for all the stolen jeans? I guess I have to make it through this week so I can find out.
Keiran Culkin existing
Alright that’s it for now. Suck it Pedro.
Nicely done...The Curse is keeping me going as well- so good! You might enjoy the album Birthday Party by Vines (not The Vines) - sweet and sad stuff.